We’re 7 weeks into our new year and it baffles me that one hasn’t got it altogether yet.
My area where we have work is still totally disorganised. I can’t have things open on shelves, or the 1 year old gets totally into them. I still have no rhythm for my little K girl.
Izaac has started his half homeschool journey with our gorgeous Christian school and the most beautiful teacher – and being challenged with where his peers are and how to combine our efforts.
It’s all felt a bit daunting this year – but if I remember, it feels daunting every year. With the adding of our little Sade being 5 and also needing to join the official schooling day – I can just feel lost. Even though I’ve studied the Muriel Dwyer – I still feel so lost and how to go forward, when both my kids didn’t have that GREAT interest in letters and numbers and feel compelled to WANT to read. It’s quite daunting, when you know peers are being pushed if they too are not so interested, when their peers in traditional classrooms are joyfully loving finally learning.
Phew, what a blaaah! But just so you know and can be however encouraged – sometimes we are just a mess and wading through this journey of teaching our children and trying to balance a joyful, non-pressured home and also where the peers are.
Just on Friday, poor Izaac (grade 2) was challenged in his writing class to write smaller, because this is what is expected for grade 3. I was so grateful to have witnessed this and have a quiet chat to his teacher about what to do. He only learnt to write last year, in his gorgeous cursive, which I’m so proud of. But once again the pressure of peers comes along and trying to find the balance to manage it and how it weighs on ones shoulders.
I’ve been thinking and thinking so for a while about blogging. Today in homeschool, Izaac and I played the sounds hide and seek game, that we played so often before, but now with phonograms, that I remembered last year we actually did have many good moments in our homeschooling journey.
I’ve struggled to start this year, because of so many thoughts;-
– should I do full Montessori,
– should I have shelf work, or selected work on the table,
– should I do nature walks, more Charlotte Mason
– will I find the right path that matches and respects what my son will love to do.
Just stuck in a place of should-I’s, not wanting to repeat what felt like failure after failure last year. Having expectations of what I thought would work, but didn’t. There actually was lovely times and now I want to actively remember the good and the bad. Be an honest blogger – as the journey of homeschooling can be so rewarding – I so love what I am doing – but it can be so hard too. Hard in the sense of could they be doing better at a normal school, am I giving them the best option. But Maria Montessori said to follow your child. So I ask my son if he wants to be at home and for now, he says yes. And this blog is called, DreambeforeYou – because God blessed me with opening my dreams before Him, laying them at His feet, when at the age of 32 the path of family I thought I had, crumbled and God had to rebuild from scratch. The song, by Kate Miner, ‘DreambeforeYou’ was what I trusted in, for my dreams of a family, a loving, kind husband. And he planted the seed of homeschooling in my heart and the marry the right man. I just didn’t have the confidence to make that choice at first with my son, and maybe in the future it will change – but for now, this is me living my life, continually with my dreams before my Maker.